I found a LOVE

I know it is weird to say I found a love. But it is true; I found someone that is far from being someone and that is Jesus. Don't get me wrong am not fanatical but i feel at peace. I believe in every religious belief and thing in this world and i still pray all i did before but have you ever realised how secure you feel. I wish we could all experience this peace of mind.

People oppress, people depreciate our understanding but GOD is great. NO matter where you are the silent prayers in your heart reach him more than you know. Keep believing and it will keep happening... The wishes you make are the doors HE opens.

Be blessed and love to you

Haiti earthquake

When I think of what has happened in Haiti in the last week and in the previous years, I tell myself that I am happy to live where I am. However I never forget that we are all at risks. I dont know if calling it apocalypse will make it fill dreadful but surely the amount of natural calamities finds only one accused and that is man. How could the world change drastically in 50years and now be on the brink of an impending doom...

I am not one to judge because though we all have a part to say, the world must unite but what i see and what is usually seen is desolation... Seeing those images on tv., hearing those cries made something touch my soul... I cried for them and i yearn to go and help them... NO one can be frozen facing their woes, their pain, the loss of their someone's but there is always hope, always hopope when there are survivors even after seven days.. somehow it seems to me that GOD up there is helping us but at the same time warning us... Not to forget who HE is, that he is creator and he is the preservor...
So all i could think to say is make a prayer for those who need it, not only the Haitians but others even for ourselves... Why let hate crush us when death seems to be looming near.. Life is so short nowadays... No matter what you are, who you are, no matter how much money you have no one knows when death comes to you....

Pray for you all...  I pray for you

LOVE

I have a secret

Yesterday after a whole one month and a half i have gotten my spectacles, I mean obviously if I hadn't lost em in the first place, I wouldnt have had to replace the spectacles... LOL

The moment I put my glasses on, it was as if a veil of mist was lifted off my face, I could see... I told myself wow the world is clearer now but that really isn't my secret... My secret is... I adore playing little girl games...

I know freaky.. Hihihi.. I love playing makeup games, dress up and etc... It is so much fun to just act crazy once in a while... or i could say for me a little bit more... Acting crazy in such a stressful world is so much better than not lol..

So that is my secret but shhhhh.. Don't tell anyone lol

Wrong to be curvaceous?

Is it wrong to be curvy??

People in this world or maybe where I live make you wonder why you are curvy instead of skinny? Like some anorexics out there who crave to be accepted by people for what they are and end up dying, do we have to make ourselves sick with starvation to really succeed in being accepted in a society where the skinnier you are, the sexier or the more perfect people find you?

My friend called me today, because her grandma told her she was fat?? Literally without any embarrasment, she told her grand-daughter that she wasnt beautiful?? Which brings a question to my mind, does it really come to this?

Being thin or being out, my friend is a previous anorexic and she nearly ended dying however the grandma doesnt seem to think that it is important she is here, why find faults in people when we all have to learn that life is just about being who you are>

IN the end it comes to this one question, where do we draw the line? What is expected from us?

What is wrong with finding love?

Actually I think m young to be asking this question but love isn't abot being young or old is it?

Is it me or the population of MY island has a problem with girl's who,like to put their comfort first then act like a sexy vixen. I don't find it wrong from time to time to gussy up but thwn i do find it comfier to walk around in sneakers than in to-die for heels and end up breaking my neck. But why don't the guys see that particular aspect of me??

I agree that I could make an effort but would it kill them to just look at my personality before looking at my body.. I am on the curvy side of life, so what Marylin Monroe was a size 42 which means that she was about the same size as me but she had the men she wanted.  Though she did end up badly point being that no matter what size YOU are, guys can love you.

Maybe my friend is right  maybe it's a question of vibes... I do set off a "AM NOT GOOD FOR LOVE" vibe but hey life is a challenge so someone out there should really challenge those vibes. Another important thing i  REALIZED in those moments of self-torture i make me live through is that I really attract guys am not attracted to and those I am attracted to well aren't really attracted to me. something must be really wrong with me somewhere....

I have lived my life waiting for the prince charming, indeed I am a Cinderella fan and proud of it, what isn't beautiful of being the world's most kind person and finding a prince that loves you even though you are covered in ahes?? Well I wouldn't really know..

Maybe I should continue my life kissing toads? I mean not in the fact that they are ugly or anything like that but it is always sad for someone single to walk down a street and see two people holding hands There is a craving though you fight against it and tell yourslef you are better without someone to interfere in your life but somewhere somehow you are truly searching the person who will make your heart beat faster against your chest...

Is that why?? Why finding love is difficult for me?? I am constantly looking for fireworks while all I can get is only a wet cracker?

(taken from the web pic)

I would love for someon to comment...

A decade to change

We are in 2010...

A decade... Ten years ago I was a little girl, barely eleven and getting in what Americans say High School... Ten years ago... My dad died... Leaving me as orphaned as can be... sad little story...

But the little girl grew, now am 21 and having to rock my boat again.

I always wanted to try blogging and I never really did it, then I watched the film, "Julie & Julia" not that I hope that I will get published but somehow it gave me the strength to begin and the ambition to end,, I don't really have a goal but somewhere I want to the show the world that the little girl I was, lost and torn by an incomprehensible guilt that somehow I was responsible of my father's death, has grown into a woman, young still but somehow stronger.

I always wanted to write to give my thoughts to the world, in a silent hope that somewhere it will touch someone and that my words won' t just fly away with me.

I give myself today with this new start a goal to keep this blog even though I have nothing to write.. I just want to believe that I will grow better with it... I have my own mistakes to pay and my own confidence to find.

Be blessed
Sabrina